Im sat here crying my eyes out, its 2:47am and I just want to sit hear and stair at your website. Got back from france today as you know and im home alone and crying. You were always ment to be here for me Ste, I cant believe you have left me. Having tea on my own, you would always cook for me being the big brother that you were, I was inviting anyone and everyone to come round for tea so I wouldnt have to be alone. There is a huge hole in my life which can never be filled. I will never get over you dieing, I will never accept that you had to leave, someone like you was never ment to leave, you are the one everyone depends on, the missing link in which a massive group of friends come together. I have a load of songs on my Ipod and 300/400 pics of you as i do on my phone, I always have you with me Ipod, phone, mind, heart, your spirit my soul. I've got you and im never letting go. Stay with me, love you for ever ste, WHY ? xxxxx your lil brother Matthew xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx