Ah up my brother, hope you are doing ok up in the clouds, whats it like living with the grand parents? I miss you so much Stephen, my life has changed so much since you have left, new friends, all of yours of course, Mr Popular were'nt we. I know you were there in Manchester on Mark's birthday, if I know you like I think I do, I got the message, cheers. Did you see Sion Darren Mark and me having a dance, wasnt right without you there. im constantly feeling empty and lonely with you not here, my life had you in it everyday and now nothing, I cant express how much you mean to me. Well I know you were there this weekend in creamfields, there is noway you wouldn't come to that. Adele said in the taxi on the way home " i bet Stephen is still there raving, going for it on stage ". The parents got back today from france, I've been home alone, that just isnt right, it was always me and you, we would sit there and have tea together, you would cook for me, and you were a good cook by the way if I never told you. I still look at your pictures, and it just feels so unreal, I want to touch you and fight with you but I cant. Adele and Stacey stayed for tea tonight, I bet your thinking what am I doing having them round for tea, there was that emptyness again of you not being there. Everything I do now seems to be around you, going out with your friends, going to Sions for the weekend, everything you would do I seem to be doing. I feel sometimes that because you and me are so alike, that all I do is reminding people of you and what a brilliant person you were. I find this is the only way I can talk to you and think that you can hear me or read what I write. Im going now Stephen, I have got Stacey and Adele on the front in the car waiting for me, Again you should be here but no. Stay with me brother I always feel your presence,love you so much, Matthew your younger brother, xxxxx