ah up Step-hen, I know you dont like being called that but what are you going to do haha, always missing you. Went to your inquest the other day, had to sit there and listen to police, witnesses, dad etc, talk about that evening/morning, you know what the final verdict was but I just want to say that you came across as the wonderful loving caring musically talented guy that you are and that is all we wanted. I'm coming up to dovestones on sunday with stacey and adele, have a chat with you and depending on the weather I might play you some music. hey you were in the newspaper again, looking like quite a stud I must say. I will never understand why you were taken from me, and I think i will be trying to figure that out for the rest of my life. I have accepted that you have gone but I had no choice in the matter but I will never get over you, just learn to live life without you. I dont want time to keep passing by, because the longer it gets from the day you left me, people expect me to find it easier, but I dont want it to get easier, I feel like I should be sad always, because I dont want people to think I have forgot about you or want people to forget about you. I have hundreds of memories of you and I wish I could share them all with everyone, you were the Funniest person ever to me. I sometimes say things and think " I sounded like Stephen then " . I still think you are going to be at home when I get home and want to tell you about my day, then I have that moment where I remember your not here and feel really lonely all of a sudden. I have done a lot since the Last time I wrote to you, went liverpool with Face, Elliot, Jones and Jay and loads more, and it felt weird being with them, I felt like an inposter, but they made me feel very welcome and just listening to the way they chat to each other just reminds me so much of you its unreal. I know they miss you because you were like a brother to all of them and everyone else, everyone misses you so much, I really dont get it. Me and Sion have had some great laughs and that sunday we sat there in silence for a moment and were both thinking the same thing when my toothbrush just randomly fell, cheers. I could sit here all night and write for ever but each song that plays on your website is more and more upseting, I love you so much it hurts, I miss you like you were my twin, LOVE AND MISS YOU LIKE MAD, your lil brother Matthew, xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxX