Stephen I have no-one to be random with, the house sounds empty, i will make that stupid punch noise expecting one back off you, but it never arrives. I'm doing my best to keep intouch with your friends and I keep hearing stories about you which makes everyone laft. I cant believe it still till this day, you are not here, I feel I am loosing my spirit because I am what I am today because of you. We did everything together for years, you were my brother, my best friend and my other half. It seems strange how you would always take my t-shirts and now I'm left with all of yours. I have your XBOX 360 here and I dont know how to use it.I am no longer scared off death, because the thought of seeing you again would be amazing, when ever my time is, wait for me. On the way to and from Spain this week, flying through the clouds some how made me feel closer to you, I was imagining what your trip up to heaven was like, did you drift and glide your way there like the free spirit that you were, most probably got lost on the way if I know you, I miss you so much, I PROMISE you that I will go sky diving for you, might even see you that high up, love you for ever and always, Matthew your lil brother, xxxxxxxxxx, ps, I'm working on my elbows